First of all I would like to say rest in peace, King of Pop Micheal Jackson, you will be greatly missed and we are all touched by this tragedy. For me, and alot of other people, Micheal Jackson WAS my childhood music, and remained prominent in my life and always will. A beautiful, talented and tortured man, but undeniably a genius. R.I.P MJ...

Last night wasnt the greatest of nights for me (not just because of MJ's death) but from alot of things catching up to me and unpleasentries arisning...I think last night the saying 'all good thing, must one day, come to a end' really rang true and was realised. Whether it be death, accidents, misunderstandings, or just plain fate, all good things do come to an end. But I guess it's the moments before the ending that make it worth while...I know that I have always been a passionate person, will to the day I die, with all my emotions, and I rearely feel anger. But just like my mother, when I do feel angry or annoyed, I can become a right bitch...And I realise that lately I have been getting angry around a few certain people, and have mistreated them, and although I have apologised and some understand, others unfortuantly dont, and I dont blame them. Though there are few who reacting in a way which on my behalf is unfair, and I've ended up confused, upset and sorrowful at the gut feeling that something good is going come to an end.

Thank you to those who helped me, supported me, and advised me last night...After talking to my friend Phil about what happened and about anger over skype, he remebered and translated a song for me which has also helped me, and I feel the lyrics are very true, so here I shall share it with you, as translated by my friend:



mò shēng qì
莫生氣

rén shēng jiù xiàng yī cháng xì ， yīn wéi yǒu yuán cái xiāng jù 。
人 生 就 像 一 場 戲 ， 因 為 有 緣 才 相 聚 。
xiāng fú dào lǎo bù róng yì ， shì fǒu gèng gāi qù zhēn xī 。
相 扶 到 老 不 容 易 ， 是 否 更 該 去 珍 惜 。
wéi le xiǎo shì fā pí qì ， huí tóu xiǎng xiǎng yòu hé bì 。
為 了 小 事 發 脾 氣 ， 回 頭 想 想 又 何 必 。
bié rén shēng qì wǒ bù qì ， qì chū bìng lái wú rén tì 。
別 人 生 氣 我 不 氣 ， 氣 出 病 來 無 人 替 。
wǒ ruò qì sǐ shéi rú yì ， kuàng qiě shāng shén yòu fèi lì 。
我 若 氣 死 誰 如 意 ， 況 且 傷 神 又 費 力 。
lín jū qīn péng bù yào bǐ ， ér sūn suǒ shì yóu tā qù 。
鄰 居 親 朋 不 要 比 ， 兒 孫 瑣 事 由 他 去 。
chī kǔ xiǎng lè zài yī qǐ ， shén xiān xiàn mù hǎo bàn lǚ 。
吃 苦 享 樂 在 一 起 ， 神 仙 羨 慕 好 伴 侶 。

Do Not Be Angry

Life is like a show; people meet because of destiny.
Mutual support until old is not easy; should one then cherish it even more?
When you lose your temper because of small things; look back and think why.
When others get angry, I do not; nobody will substitute me if I am ill as a result.
Who would want me to die of anger; besides, hurting God is a waste of energy.
Do not compare yourself to your neighbours, family or friends;
if your children or grandchildren misbehave, let them be.
Share your suffering and your pleasure; celestials admire good companions.



On a lighter and different note, from this realisation, I have gained even more drive and motivation to live out my dreams of living in Hong Kong and learning Cantonese, to become a great Illustrator, and to not let anyone try and stop me. From this day forth I'll start thinking of myself and trying to live for myself a little more. I'm going to Taiwan, Taipai for a month in August, and I'm hoping that my time out there, will really help root me and help me restart again.



Once again R.I.P Micheal Jackson and thank you to my friends, you are the dearest thing to me.



THEME MUSIC!